(Trigger warning for the subject of miscarriage again and a warning for Rika’s awful potty mouth. Sorry.)
C: We just got a text from a long-time friend. I don’t know what to do about this cataclysmic result. I’m holding a semblence of control by “chatting” with you over the text in this post. There’s no “inside room” to talk like we normally have. It’s just disappeared.
R: Obviously the fucking universe thinks it’s goddamn hilarious to do something like this to us after your last entry about the miscarriage and how we’ve been feeling today in general.
C: The text is a simple question of asking us how “pregnancy nausea” felt because “well, you’ve been pregnant”. Yes. I suppose we have.
R: There’s a goddamn understanding with the fucking people who know us to limit their talk about pregnancy with us. And definitely don’t goddamn talk to us about OUR goddamn pregnancy. Why the fuck would you do that??? Something that had us almost commit suicide??? Are they just fucking dumber than a box of rocks???
C: I typed a brief response as best I could before the triggering overpowered us. Now we can’t stop switching and we’re at work and it’s just…a mess. How are we supposed to work if Serefina can’t even stay out? She’s always been able to override a “switch-off” in the past during a business day. Her “powers” are career and work related. That’s her area.
R: I’ll tell you goddamn why. It’s because even us protectors can’t handle switching related to that goddamn miscarriage. Fucking Charlotte and her fucking casual sex.
C: Don’t talk like that. That baby was loved by all of us and you know it.
R: No goddamn comment on what feelings I had during the pregnancy. My point is Charlotte deserved a lesson on fucking protection and birth-control.
C: I’m wondering if we should make this entry private. Especially with your mouth.
R: Fucking whatever. I never get to talk in this damn blog obviously.
C: All right. That is true. This is supposed to be healing and cathartic. You need it too.
R: Ugh. You sound like fucking Roms. Go back to writing and daydreaming about a white knight.