I’m feeling much better.
Had a lovely evening with Texas where we got quotes on our tattoos we shall be getting (more on that later) and talked about the Germany email. I’ve come to realize a couple things:
1. Germany is a whole continent away. She isn’t in the situation like the rest of us. Obviously she can’t completely understand
2. Though I didn’t make the stupid choices she implied I did, I have made stupid choices the past couple weeks. I need to be responsible for that.
3. I decided days ago (with input from Texas and Shadow Dragon) to stop dwelling on this whole Jeff situation and what I could have done, how I could fix it, how I could have changed it, etc., etc.- and move on with my life. I shouldn’t let comments relating almost entirely to that bog my whole week down.
4. I have some fantastic friends right here in this zip code that are being perfectly supportive and I don’t need to be that doormat people-pleaser I desperately tried to be most of my life.
So I am just going to forget about it.
Moving on- Texas and I are getting tattoos next week. It will be merely the second one for me and the….I’ve lost count for Texas (they’re all beautiful and able to be tastefully covered though). There are a couple various reasons as to why we’re getting them together, even though they aren’t technically “for” each other or anything like that. I don’t like “memorial”-type tattoos.
(side note: Army actually has one written in Latin on his forearm that’s for his crazy cheating-abusive ex-wife. Sometimes I tease him about it. He takes it [always a good sport] because he’ll be the first to admit it was a dumb tattoo to get.)
Anyway, Texas’s idea is charming. I discovered a picture that is pretty much what she’s getting.
I don’t think it’s specifically for me- she’s a big fan of Winnie the Pooh and has many friends.
Mine’s smaller, but a bit more complicated. I’ve always been a been “symbology” sort of person. My fox and butterfly tattoo has multiple meanings (some only 2 or 3 people even know).
My second tattoo shall be no exception. I do not have a mock-up of the actual design that will be going onto my body, as a lovely artistic friend of mine is still working on that, but it is going to incorporate the following symbols:
The idea is to sort of “entwine” this two symbols together in a very organic way (like a vine or tree). It’s going on the inside of my right wrist. To remind me of my support and strengths when my thoughts go to dark places.
I shall upload pictures of the actual tattoo once I get it done!