I’m feeling really awful today.
First of all, I’ve been feeling really fat and ugly lately. I suppose it’s the season and the whole Winter Blues thing. It’s been leading to a bit of craziness. I haven’t been eating much, though I’m trying not to let it get to dangerous levels. That’s been hard. I’ve also been a bit harsh with the beauty regime; using toner and cleanser and an expensive overnight cream.
Then Mom asked me to house-sit and watch my youngest brother for the next couple days. Tonight while he and I were watching a movie, he told me some nasty and hateful things his dad (my stepfather) said to him about me. My brother is thirteen years old. And I’ve always been polite and helpful to him. I don’t think I deserve such underhanded and rude trash talking.
But maybe I do….
I’m trying really hard not to self-harm. I’ve been so good the past couple weeks.
But tonight is hard.
I don’t think I’m strong enough.
pen, paper, and crazy 
Hold tight, you can make it through! ~Kali
Thinking of yous, Allie says hi to arms, and Im saying hi to all of you guys! O taylor also says hi, and so does darina!
And nitro sends wags of his tail, and kisses, =
You do what you want to feel better and we all need a pamper sometimes but please disregard spiteful, petty and viscious crap that others spew xx
Thank you. I’m doing my best. It always a surprise to me how much words hurt.