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Today I focused on little sensations that give me strange pleasure. Just to give me something semi-positive without dwelling on how my life is going right now.
Here’s a little list of what I’ve done so far:
1. The way the brush stops a bit earlier than I remember, as I got my hair cut last night. Not dramatically (I freak out if my hair is too short- and I consider shoulder-length short), but enough that the brush stops before I expect it to. It isn’t a terrible sensation, disconcerting yes, but comforting. Small changes are good.
2. Gently placing the tips of my fingers right by the bottom of a running faucet. Right where the pile of bubbles are. It’s like water giving you a cool raspberry and it always makes me smile.
3. The automatic way I can shift my car to get going in the morning. Some aspects of automatic driving scare me, but I like the way the shift clicks from reverse into drive smoothly and my foot moves pedals without thinking.
Unfortunately, then I had to go to work. Work is not a place I feel comfortable or happy at right now, so not a lot of pleasant sensations there.
Hopefully more will happen soon.