I have a date tomorrow.
With this guy I barely know.
Dunno why I’m doing it, really. I think I’m trying to prove to myself that I can still manage normal.
I don’t really feel like dating or having a relationship at all. But I currently have no single friends and it’s really hard to hang out with them and only hear “couple talk”. I hate it.
I know this date tomorrow is cowardly and self-destructive and stupid and meaningless. And completely unfair to the guy. And I can’t find it in myself to care.
I think I’m in a story where I’m the villain.
I’m not really sure who the hero’s supposed to be.
Maybe they’ll win eventually and I won’t have to deal with all this anymore.
I think I’d like that.
pen, paper, and crazy 
It seems to me like you feel guilty about just wanting to spend a good time, don’t beat yourself too much about it!
That is the trick, isn’t it?
Good and healing thoughts to you.
Kate
Oh and I wanted to say I love Red Dwarf too! 🙂
Kate
Really??? I love finding fellow Dwarfers!
Yes! Really! I’ve never met someone else who loved it. I’ve been yearning for some swimming certificates to put up on my wall for some time, even if no one else gets it. I think someday I’ll have to learn how to make up some certificates on the computer and make my own 🙂
Good and healing thoughts to you.
Kate
Yes! If you manage it, let me know! I want one too!!! And maybe some light post pictures 😉
Let me just say that I have always hated Morris dancing and always will. There is only so far a girl should have to go out of love. I saw a group downtown one day and wanted to hit them all in the head, so annoying, not very nice of me, but I resisted and tried to ignore them. They were idiots! Lol.
Kate
Lol. You are awesome and hilarious 🙂
Lol.
Kate