I tried to get support last night.
I tried to find a friend or family member to at least go out for coffee or something small just for a little bit.
Just so I wasn’t stuck in my own head trying to dodge the yells, curses, and accusations.
But no one wanted to. Everyone had better things to do.
I tried really hard.
But I can’t tell anyone why I really need to not be alone.
I don’t want to go back to the hospital. I don’t want to be in trouble. I don’t want to be a bad girl.
I don’t want to be alone.
But I was alone. All alone.
So I took some Tylenol PM and tried to sleep.
It didn’t go well. I just feel crazier this morning.
I’m not sure how long I can do this.
Edit: I’ve had some very lovely and sweet blog friends/supporters suggest the idea of emailing me to distract and cheer me up. I think it’s such a lovely idea. You guys do such a great job in the comments, but I feel like it always stops so abruptly after the reply.
If you feel so inclined (absolutely no pressure) to drop me a caring, funny, insightful thought or pictures, my email is email@example.com . Any distraction helps.