I definitely crashed today. I expected it. But it’s been a little more than I thought.
I made the (stupid) decision to go to this local health fair yesterday morning. It was mostly because they were giving out free spay vouchers and I wanted one for Zoe.
Good news is I got one.
Bad news is I decided to do some free screenings. My father has instilled in me this drive to take advantage of any free offers, especially if their a “high value” one. No matter how triggering.
And we all know how triggering the medical field is for Pen.
I was deeply disassociating by the mere second screening.
Those face masks.
The snap of the blue gloves.
Squeeze of the blood pressure cuff
Then somehow I end up at a BMI stand.
I know this will go badly. There’s a reason why I don’t own a scale.
The reading seems so high. I am blubber. No dinner for me today. Salad for the lunch I have scheduled with Mom.
And then I have to be social.
Just too much for one day.
So today I am my in my ball in bed. I am not dealing with the world.
I can barely deal with myself.