I lied. I do sort of have something to say.
The ED is rampant today. With my birthday being this weekend and a huge bash at a local drive-in movie theater being planned by Texas, I’m feeling fat, ugly, and just….awful. I just want to not touch food until after Saturday night.
But I know I can’t do that and still keep this struggle a secret. I have so many social events over the next 4 days. And birthday dinners with various relatives.
I’m trying not to go crazy.
But it’s hard.
I just wish I had someone to be my rock, my raft, my life vest.
Well. I wish my father would. That he could even consider it.
I don’t understand why I try so hard to be a Daddy’ Girl, even though I know it will never happen. But I always try.
I try to be that daughter he can be proud of.
And that’s why this must remain a secret.