Squeezing blood from stone

My supervisor almost had me crying in a meeting today.  

That so rarely happens, especially with Sere usually being the one who fronts (she doesn’t do emotional).  But he just keeps pushing and demanding and pushing and I just can’t do all that he’s demanding.  

He semi-triggered me and I just felt that bubbly break.  It was awful.  I held back thankfully, though he could certainly tell he touched a nerve (my face did that crumple thing without giving way to tears or noises).

And I’m not getting any of the hours or raise that’s been promised.

You can’t squeeze blood from stone, but currently he is trying his best. Squeeze squeeze squeeze.

I’m not sure how much longer I can be here.  I may take Mom up on her offer of returning to the law firm sooner than I expected.

Sorry- short post for a bad day.  I’ll have some other updates in another day or two most likely.  Work has just been overloading me.  To put it mildly.

16 thoughts on “Squeezing blood from stone

  1. Mental Mama

    Bail on his ass if you think there is any way you can possibly go to work for your mom. He sounds like nothing but trouble. Of course, I’m biased – all men sound like nothing but trouble today. Sorry, ignore me. Hope you feel better soon. Maybe pickles will help.

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    1. Pen Post author

      Lol. All men are nothing but trouble. I was so happy my lovely coworker convinced me to skip out for lunch (mmmm, mala green beans!). Next best thing to pickles 😉

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  2. kat

    rats! so sorry the things you were promised were just bait to get you to do more for the same pay. maybe there are other options than just this current job or your mom’s firm?

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    1. Pen Post author

      I’ve been looking for and applying for alternative jobs for awhile now. The problem is finding one that is at or above my current pay-grade. My budget is already tight.
      The job market is just crummy by me right now 😦

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  3. vwoopvwoop

    the job market is crummy, for sure, but that offer of your mom’s is sounding better all the time. i’m sorry this guy was a jerkface. 😦 lots of love to you darling.

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    1. Pen Post author

      Thank you. The support is so nice ❤ Yeah, I'm thinking about it. The question is whether I can really make the same amount of money reliably. My mom's firm has been fluctuating (hence why I got my current job a year ago) and I don't want to be destitute in 6 months again.

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  4. Sophia

    I find that many places of employment promise things that they cannot keep because they want to milk their employees for as much as they can. If it causing too much stress you should move on into something more relaxing, and something you are already comfortable with.

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    1. Pen Post author

      That is exactly it. I know that they’re trying to get me to do more without actually paying me more. That’s honestly a lot of why my supervisor and I are butting heads so much. I’m starting to be assertive about not doing more without more pay and he isn’t liking it.
      I may possibly get fired. I don’t much care though. I’m at a quitting point almost anyway. This is too much mentally right now. If it doesn’t let up in the next week or so; I’m gone.

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    1. Pen Post author

      So far, worse. But I’m hoping for a reprieve here soon. Maybe. Hopefully.
      Just a day. A moment.

      Anyway, thanks for your thoughts ❤

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  5. Grainne

    *hugs you* I had an argument with my boss yesterday too. 😦 Bad day…over now, thank god. Today is a new one. If you need a break from it shoot me an email? I’m in the office all day keeping my nose down. xx

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    1. Pen Post author

      It’s only gotten worse so far. I thought I was going to be fired there for a bit. And now things are just…completely FUBARed. Ugh. I’m hoping I can manage to keep pushing without a breakdown. Right now I barely even stop to pee, so I barely have breaks for this or emailing 😦
      I miss it.

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    1. Pen Post author

      Oh, you are so lovely. I’ve been so very behind and overwhelmed, so I’m not sure I can go about doing an official acceptance right at this point. But I am so very flattered you thought of me ❤ ❤

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