Having blackouts again.
Things are also quite fractured. No sense of teamwork. I’m just trying to keep somewhat focused so regular medication and hydration can happen at least.
Army visited this weekend and it’s almost entirely a blur or blank. I don’t think he’s the stress causing the blackouts and switching, but it seems to be worse around him.
At a loss for what to do. Communication is also extremely difficult. Haven’t been able to easily discuss what’s going on with any other parts.
I don’t want to talk to a professional about this. Last time the blackouts were this bad, anti-psychotic medication was prescribed (not always taken) and the possibility of hospitalization was urged. We don’t want those at all. Even though the ED becomes very bad and our blood pressure is shooting through the roof.
I’m worried it’s the nitro pills we have to take for the high BP. They’re new. Combined with the stress of this past week.
I don’t know.
I just want to try and keep things semi-coherent. But it’s hard.
I really hate losing time and being so split. It’s drastically better when we work as a team.
I’m at a loss right now. Trying not to get scared. Then I blackout even more.