Army and I

Apparently we aren’t speaking.  I wasn’t aware of this.  I’m not even sure what the hell I did.  Something to do with some new friends I made recently.  He inferred that he basically thinks I’m screwing around on him.  Apparently I’m not allowed to have friends he doesn’t know. 

Shadow Dragon and Texas both think the problem is the husband of the new friends (it’s a couple) is ex-army as well, so Army’s all uncomfortable because technically he’s my only friend who served in that branch of the military (I do live in an Air Force town).  But I made a big deal about them being a married couple and older and only helping me with some of depression and mental issues by being lovely supportive friends.

At first Army was just sort of quiet about them when I said I’d made new friends and described them a bit.

And then they helped me find my new apartment.  After I told Army that, he hinted that I now owed them sexual favors (in a biting, spiteful way) and hasn’t spoken to me since.

I wish it didn’t affect me as much as it is.

I was so happy about this new apartment.

Now I just feel…lonely and depressed again.  Living alone is currently sucking.

My hot water heater decided to not work yesterday inexplicably.  Thankfully it magically fixed itself this morning and I was able to take a shower.  I hope it stays working now.

There’s a baby next door (despite the landlord swearing no children lived anywhere nearby) that has colic or something because it’s been wailing and screaming for about 4 days straight.  Walls are thin here.

I’m just…not sure about this whole living alone thing.

Maybe I’m not cut out for it…

8 thoughts on “Army and I

  1. Mental Mama

    I’m 36 and have NEVER lived on my own. The brief times I’ve been between husbands I’ve either lived with a roommate or with my parents. I admire you for being brave enough to give it a go. I’m fairly certain it wouldn’t work for me.

    1. Pen Post author

      Haha. Pretty much the whole time I’ve had roommates or significant others, I’ve wanted to live alone. I always reveled in that time they were gone and I had the place to myself.
      Not sure why I’m having trouble now…..
      The mind is a strange, strange thing.

  2. Bourbon

    It’s hard to begin with… things have to readjust in your mind… you need time to get used to the place, get a routine, that sort of stuff. So what is Army’s deal? Jealousy? Not something that you need to be dealing with. Sorry things are a bit sucky right now. xox

    1. Pen Post author

      I’m sure you’re right. Just some time will make a lot of difference 🙂

      I have no idea what Army’s deal is. He isn’t normally the jealous type at all, so this whole thing doesn’t make sense at all. It’s something Katherine would do, not him. And that in itself has made the whole fiasco extra-trigger-y.

      Thanks for your thoughts ❤ ❤

  3. weordmyndum

    It sounds like Army is being hella immature. Not that that makes it any less hurtful, of course.

    Gotta hate it when everything goes wrong at once. That’s when you just gotta hit something. Or I do, anyway.

    Here’s hoping things improve.

    1. Pen Post author

      Yeah. I’m just really confused because it isn’t like him at all. He isn’t jealous, he isn’t petty, he isn’t into the whole “silent treatment” thing. It’s why I like him so much. So this whole thing is like he’s possessed.

      I usually do more self-harming things like drink or swallow painkillers. Trying to be better about that. Thinking about baking. I love baking. Kind of weird baking for yourself though…

      Thanks for hoping ❤ ❤


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